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Awakening
The woman I was a few months ago would not have believed that I would take a workshop called Burlesque from the Inside Out – choreographing and performing a powerful solo piece in a cabaret show in a San Francisco theater! This is the point where Kellita the Showgirl Shaman shimmied her way into my…
Read MoreSupport
Today I’m moved by my own strong desire to feel supported in my life. Support for me feels like connection, listening, calling, showing up, checking in, offering, loving, communicating, making time, encouragement, patience, and presence. I know there is a wide net of love that exists for me. And there are times, like today, that…
Read More#metoo
Every time I see, hear or read the name Ben, I think about the Benjamin R. Holland, who I was on the Swimming & Diving Team with at Kenyon College, who had sex with me without my consent. Even now as I write this 20 years later, I hesitate to use the word rape because…
Read MoreChange
Almost 20 years ago, in my early 20’s, I was living in San Francisco. I was in a relationship with a man from Chicago who grew up in a predominantly white, Irish Catholic, working class neighborhood where it was very common for him, and mostly everyone in his life, to use racial and homophobic slurs…
Read MoreHumble
From Humble Beginnings – this postcard is from early 2010…yikes. Many people probably don’t know that my web design business, KojolaPower, actually started as a yoga class. I was cleaning out my computer files today and found this postcard design that I made in 2010. I am totally embarrassed by everything about this design (the…
Read MoreImpatient
I felt very impatient today with the snails pace of change in our world. I watched two powerful documentaries by Jennifer Siebel Newsom, Miss Representation and The Mask You Live In. I feel fired up about so many ISSUES in our culture that contribute to so much pain for so many people. It’s so hard to watch so many…
Read MoreDiving
My dad took this photo of me diving when I was maybe 11 or 12. My young face looks so determined and also afraid. It’s been years since I’ve been on a diving board, but what I remember most about it, all those years and all those dives, is the vulnerability and the fear. There…
Read MoreHappy
There’s a stuckness I’m grappling with and it’s all on me. There are no real barriers to my happiness other than my own willingness to be happy. I’m completely willing to be happy with my friends, with strangers, in public places. I love being kind, open, loving, and supportive with people in my life. It’s…
Read MoreAlchemy
“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” ― Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist I love The Alchemist and have read it so many times. This is one of my favorite lines. I feel like the only explanation for my life is the universe conspiring to help me. Today…
Read MoreChairs
Many months ago someone put some Adirondack chairs at the edge of the bay along Pt San Pedro Rd. I’ve seen them there so many times and thought what a lovely idea it was; an invitation to sit & enjoy a beautiful view. Today I was on a walk, and I finally decided to sit…
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