Healing
Orienting to 49
I turned 49 this week. I’m orienting, organizing, and grounding around the start of my 50th year. I spent my birthday at Harbin Hot Springs, where I got a massage, walked slowly through the gardens, watched the morning light touch the land, listened to coyotes near my cottage, and remembered how much natural beauty helps…
Read Moremoving fear
Building a Map Through Fear I’ve been noticing that I’m building a kind of map for how I move through fear—and it’s happening through my real life, not outside of it. Not in big breakthroughs, but in the moments where I feel stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure what to do next. These are a few moments…
Read Moresacred errands
Join me for some sacred errands. A 5-6 minute read if you have the time and desire. I’ve felt an uncomfortable level of overwhelm and too muchness for weeks. Today instead of trying harder, instead of demanding more efficiency from myself, I’m trying out what it’s like to slow down and let things exist without…
Read Morenourishing
Today I’m thinking about how I relate to nourishing myself. This morning I decided to roast some sweet potatoes. I considered how to retain the most nourishment from them for my body, how I like them to taste and look, and how they will hold up as leftovers. I spontaneously felt so much love and…
Read Moredelicate balance
Some thoughts I had while sitting still. It’s useful to see all the choices available to me in any given moment. Also, I don’t want to spend so much time weighing each choice that I miss out on my life. Finding the flow feels like a good way to navigate. Feeling into the stuck, tense…
Read Moreintentions for my ceremony
What I Hope to Explore I hope to explore who I am when I’m untethered from who I think I’m supposed to be — from the versions of me I’ve shaped for respect, validation, or belonging.Who am I when I stop waiting for the “right time” to be myself? I want to experience more peace,…
Read Moreit matters
Today I want you to know that all of your efforts make a difference. I want you to understand and feel deep in your bones that everything you put your energy toward carries your love in a way that heals. It’s all worth it. It’s all witnessed. It’s all seen. It is seen by the…
Read Morebreathe
Today’s message from love: Take a few long, slow, deep breaths. Take a few more. Breathe deeply all the way down into your pelvis. Breathe space between your ribs. Breathe into your back body. Generously give your lungs cool, fresh air. Let the exhale fall out of you gently. Let the air and the breath…
Read Moremessage from love
A message from love: Never underestimate your heart. If you could see yourself through its eyes, you would never doubt yourself. It is not always easy to have a big heart. You were born for this challenge. You already have the capacity you need to give and receive love. You always have enough when it…
Read Morewaiting
I felt these words so deeply. I’ve been waiting too—sometimes patiently, sometimes aggressively, even self-destructively. I forget my self-care practices. I lean into choices I know won’t make me feel better. I ride a glimmer of creative spark, using a moment of inspiration to feel better, but I am still waiting. Waiting inside. Looking out…
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