In Nature
green and gold
Yesterday I drove through a stunning landscape of gold and green. Lush vineyards and golden hills. Some vines have lovely scattered flowers growing underneath. Those make me smile. The rows of vines are so orderly. They feed my need for structure and organization and make me feel calm. I can only imagine the amount of…
Read MoreSunset to Moonrise
Sunset to moonrise hike last night. Listening to a book written 20 years ago about a dystopian future that sounds a lot like today. The imagined suffering that is now real made me cry. It’s so chronically exhausting to see all that is failing, depleting, exploitative, and toxic, and to know that people in power…
Read MoreSilver Dollar Eucalyptus
This Silver Dollar Eucalyptus tree grows just outside my back gate. Each summer someone cuts it down in the name of fire safety and defensible space. No matter how valid the reason, I feel the loss deeply each time. It feels so wrong to me to unceremoniously cut down a healthy, thriving tree, grind it…
Read MoreI am included
Today I took the long way home through China Camp. I drove slowly along curvy North San Pedro Road which hugs San Pablo Bay. 4 miles of nourishment. I love when the tide is coming in. I see rhythmic ripples in the smooth, glassy water making their way towards the shore. I admire the marshy…
Read MoreSolstice
Standing still with the Sun to honor the Solstice. Watching the Sun dance with the water, wind, trees, tides, and shining deeply through the clear, blue sky. I find witnessing moments like this so romantic. It’s the romance between nature and me. Sometimes I cry because it is so beautiful and I have only tears,…
Read MoreNew Choice
New Choice! I remember the feeling of being in an improv scene during a Medicine Theater class and hearing Asher Lyons call out, “New choice!” He was saying to pivot and change the scene, to take it in a new direction by making a new choice. Sometimes that “new choice” energy moves us in the…
Read MoreWhat Am I Watching?
I saw a friend at a party recently. He seemed excited to know what I’ve been reading and watching on TV. I read & watch tv, but nothing I could think of seemed worth recommending. I wanted to be able to rattle off all the interesting things I’ve learned recently, but my mind was blank.…
Read MoreSpring Equinox
A simple, sincere celebration. Today I only had a moment to honor the Spring Equinox. I spotted the first purple hyacinth I’ve seen this year blooming wild in the grass. I felt humbled by her beauty and freshness. I couldn’t look away for the longest time because of how fleeting Spring wild flowers can be.…
Read MoreListening to Water
Listening to water calms me. I often try to hear words in her sounds and find messages in my experience of her. My desire to make meaning is a front for my longing to experience the unearned love of the divine. The ways water shines her love on me fill up the spaces between words…
Read MoreSilence
Silence can have such depth and dimension. So much can happen without a sound. Even when I have very little to say, energy pulses, vibrates, and creates something where there’s also nothing. Sometimes I long for the right words and sometimes I make no effort to recall them. Silence can be comfortable and also unbearable.…
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