Peace Is Something I Have to Stop Leaving

Ocean view from a coastal hike in Pacifica, California, with dramatic clouds, wildflowers, and a rocky peninsula extending into the Pacific Ocean.

My peace can sometimes feel like something that is out there that I have to go find. Maybe I have to hike up the hill? I wonder if a better view will help me find peace? Some days I need to drive myself to the ocean. Will I find my peace walking along the edges…

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Orienting to 49

Pink flower in sunlight at Harbin Hot Springs garden, symbolizing slowing down, beauty, and self-reflection

I turned 49 this week. I’m orienting, organizing, and grounding around the start of my 50th year. I spent my birthday at Harbin Hot Springs, where I got a massage, walked slowly through the gardens, watched the morning light touch the land, listened to coyotes near my cottage, and remembered how much natural beauty helps…

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sacred errands

Bare feet with light pink toenails standing in lush green grass and clover

Join me for some sacred errands. A 5-6 minute read if you have the time and desire. I’ve felt an uncomfortable level of overwhelm and too muchness for weeks. Today instead of trying harder, instead of demanding more efficiency from myself, I’m trying out what it’s like to slow down and let things exist without…

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You Are Loved

Part I: You Are Loved Dear love, What would you have me know today? My dear sweet heart, You are loved. There’s nothing that you need to do to be loved other than exist. It’s true what A. said—please, breathe in love. Please allow yourself to feel and truly take in the love. It takes…

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tending to myself

A lesson I keep learning, over and over again, is that I must tend to myself.I must find ways to make time to care for myself.Taking care of Abby is Abby’s responsibility.Taking care of our human is our responsibility. It sounds obvious—but it’s not. It hasn’t been obvious for most of my life.I don’t feel…

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becoming: my prayer

There’s a quiet voice in me that’s ready to be heard. Lately, I’ve been feeling the nudge to turn inward—not to retreat, but to listen. To listen to what I haven’t yet fully allowed myself to know. So I’ve set some intentions—not as rigid goals, but as gentle prayers, soft anchors for the path ahead.…

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space between silence + sharing

I want to write everything. But there’s so much we don’t talk about. Where do I start? I’ve always thought that if we could somehow understand what’s it’s like to be in another person’s being – to have lived every second of their life until now in their skin – that the world would be…

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