Archive for October 2018
Love
I’ve been single for 15 years. I’ve been saying 10 years for so long and recently realized that it’s now 15. That was a sobering moment of realization. Often when men learn this they don’t believe me or ask what is wrong with me. I am single. I try not to have beliefs about why.…
Read MoreBest Person Ever
These are some things that George Gray Eagle Bertelstein has said to me over the years that are in my head and heart always to combat the other kinds of thoughts and feelings that aren’t aligned with who I actually am or who I pray to be. On the first day we met he said,…
Read MoreOcean
What’s compelling to me about the ocean today is the expanse of it, the width, length and depth of it going way out beyond my view, and the sound of the wind and the waves in conversation. The Pacific Ocean in Northern California is fierce and cold, but being next to it makes anything seem…
Read MoreFilter
In my adult years of dating men, I often marvel at their collective inability to get me, to allow my feelings to exist without trying to fix or solve me, to comfortably let me lead, or to be curious about what I might say, do or be if they stopped talking for a bit and…
Read MoreTone Policing
If you feel the need to say “Not all white people,” you should watch this video. It’s not only aggravating to the very people you are opening your mouth to say that you are down with, it’s also counter-productive, unnecessary, and an exhibit of white privilege to believe that you have the right to demand…
Read MoreCo-Conspirator’s Lounge
Recently I had a lot of feelings about being recruited, evangelized or pressured into things in a sales-y way. I’ve been reflecting on those feelings and looking for ways that I behave in the same way as those I condemned. I see that there’s a difference between an organization that pressures/requires you to get your…
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