loosening

A few days ago, I was watering my yard and noticed a hummingbird was following me around. I realized that she wanted a drink of water. It was a hot afternoon. I held the water stream steady and she buzzed in and out of it a few times. I was happy to help her cool…

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Sunset to Moonrise

Sunset to moonrise hike last night. Listening to a book written 20 years ago about a dystopian future that sounds a lot like today. The imagined suffering that is now real made me cry. It’s so chronically exhausting to see all that is failing, depleting, exploitative, and toxic, and to know that people in power…

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47

Wisdom of just barely 47. Sitting and breathing fully is the most healing choice and a gateway to my own wisdom. A birthday can be quietly nurturing and soulful. My own secret adventures make me happy. Magic happens alone in the redwoods under a waterfall. Fully receiving all the birthday love from those available to…

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Winter Solstice Light

I took some time today to seek out the light that was available on this Solstice. I put myself in the way of the light to receive warmth and fresh energy. I became more light. I felt the transformation happening between myself and today. I’ve been sick for days and isolating so I don’t add…

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George Grey Eagle Bertelstein

Today my friend George left his body. With all of the people he loved so deeply, I can only imagine how hard it must have been for him to let go and cross to the other side. He did it. His death has already been a deeply meaningful teaching. It has only just begun to…

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A rainbow is a spectrum

I love a rainy Sunday. I love a rainbow with my tea. I love right place, right time magic. These moments of peace and beauty feel wonderful and sometimes allow me to feel what has been bubbling underneath and rising to the surface over the last weeks. I might both overcomplicate and oversimplify some things…

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I am included

Today I took the long way home through China Camp. I drove slowly along curvy North San Pedro Road which hugs San Pablo Bay. 4 miles of nourishment. I love when the tide is coming in. I see rhythmic ripples in the smooth, glassy water making their way towards the shore. I admire the marshy…

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Mushrooms

Some notes from the mushrooms… The help that I asked for. … The world, your brain, your body, your awareness, and your consciousness are all much bigger and more expansive than you can grasp. … There are infinitely more possibilities, worlds of experience, and wisdoms available to you in every moment. Just ask for help.…

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46

Here’s my happiness about being 46. I love the way I’m aging. I love that I get to have more gray hairs, more vibrant flesh, more awareness of my humanity, and more agency and wisdom to live in my sovereignty. I love myself more all the time and that offers me even more love and…

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Silence

Silence can have such depth and dimension. So much can happen without a sound. Even when I have very little to say, energy pulses, vibrates, and creates something where there’s also nothing. Sometimes I long for the right words and sometimes I make no effort to recall them. Silence can be comfortable and also unbearable.…

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