Listening
J is for Jaguar
On Sunday, a friend hosted a gathering about creativity—how we express it, and how inspiration is finding us in this season of life. I loved being in community, talking about creativity while sitting inside a beautiful day with nature sounds all around us. Something about that combination—conversation, beauty, attention, and the permission to just explore—opened…
Read Moredelicate balance
Some thoughts I had while sitting still. It’s useful to see all the choices available to me in any given moment. Also, I don’t want to spend so much time weighing each choice that I miss out on my life. Finding the flow feels like a good way to navigate. Feeling into the stuck, tense…
Read Morewinter solstice
In between the rain showers today, I spent time with wet trees & muddy trails. I met so many mushrooms & explored their under sides from below. I felt into the darkness of the lightest part of the day. I saw beauty in the decay & breakdown & I noticed new life everywhere. I went…
Read Moreheart rock
It is neither useful nor possible to solve all the problems of the day at once. Piling on all the burdens of the moment & wearing them like a heavy coat doesn’t help. Nor is it a solution to run away from or ignore it all. Handling things strictly in the order they appear isn’t…
Read Moremessage from the moon
From the full moon… Lie down on the ground, womb to the earth. Feel her pulse beneath you. Lift your gaze to me— see yourself in my light. I am always reflecting you, the mirror of your becoming, the witness of your return. I move with you through every tide, through blood and breath, through…
Read Morelistening to rain
Listening to rain… Listen. Simply listen to my drops as they meet the earth. You will hear such depth & variation. You will know that no two moments are ever the same in this river of time. The almost imperceptible drop of a light rain, just a little more than mist, so quiet, you have…
Read Morehuachuma wisdom
Some wisdom from the Huachumas: Stand firm and tall, and be gently moved by the wind as it comes. Stand your ground. Root down. Grow up. Draw in your sustenance and nutrients from the earth, the air, the sun, the moon. All are in support of your life, your growth, your legacy. Your self-protection is…
Read MoreI Keep Coming Back to Myself
I keep writing and rewriting because some part of me still believes I can change the story. Not the facts.Not what happened. But the emotional ending. Some part of me still wants to arrive at a version where I finally understand enough, explain enough, soften enough, heal enough, and then suddenly everything will feel peaceful.…
Read Morelearning from the river
I spent several hours over the past two days immersed in the Yuba River. I visited two different spots along the river, returning again and again to the water and the rocks as my teachers. I explored the shallow water, pulling myself forward with my arms like an alligator—my head just above the surface, my…
Read Morebecoming: my prayer
There’s a quiet voice in me that’s ready to be heard. Lately, I’ve been feeling the nudge to turn inward—not to retreat, but to listen. To listen to what I haven’t yet fully allowed myself to know. So I’ve set some intentions—not as rigid goals, but as gentle prayers, soft anchors for the path ahead.…
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