Turtle Love

My Aunt Joan has been on my mind a lot lately. She is mostly not in her “right” mind given her dementia, but certain parts of her personality still shine through… A couple of people from Joan’s past have reached out to me after finding the blog post I wrote about her a few years…

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46

Here’s my happiness about being 46. I love the way I’m aging. I love that I get to have more gray hairs, more vibrant flesh, more awareness of my humanity, and more agency and wisdom to live in my sovereignty. I love myself more all the time and that offers me even more love and…

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83

My dad took this photo of my mom and me about 42 years ago. Today my mom turns 83 and soon I turn 46. What a blessing it is to have been given all these moments to become who we are today and experience all the human things that life offers. Nothing is promised and…

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The Deepness | Into The Fire

My friend Paige (The Deepness) just released her second single, “Into the Fire”, off of her debut, self-titled album. I’ve been listening and wanted to share it with you. It’s a beautiful, soulful expression and prayer that speaks to me of deep transformation, healing, and longing for the kind of authentic expression that reaches out…

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My Ancestors Love

Remembering the dead & feeling my ancestors love. My maternal grandmother, Helen Aherns Berger, was the elder most present in my young life. What I remember most about her was the feeling of being accepted. I knew she was rooting for me to be myself. In retrospect, it seems like she wanted to see who…

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The Preacher

About 6 years ago, my good friend and her fiancé called to ask if I would officiate their wedding. I was incredibly honored and immediately said an enthusiastic. “YES!” As what I had agreed to do slowly set in, I realized that I felt insecure about performing a wedding ceremony given that I’ve had so…

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Holding Tiny Humans

The right side photo is from 8 years ago. I’m overcome with wonder at the sweet, preciousness of my sleeping, spirit nephew, Sonny, in my arms. I’m so grateful that my body easily knows how to hold others. My body is designed to radiate love and comfort to those allowed to get close enough to…

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44

I’m finding a lot of peace at the start of my 44th year. Peace in the present moment, peace in being with myself, feeling peaceful in the body I’ve got right now, and peace with those in my life however close or far away they choose to be. There is also an abundance of feelings…

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First smell of fall rain

First smell of fall rainStoking my desire for moreLet go letting go Seasons change, people change, and I change. I want with all my heart to be the most current, accessible, and loving version of myself at all times. I can be all those those things and still struggle to let life flow through me…

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Adrienne Mehri Shamszad

Last night Adrienne’s voice, her songs and the music she and her band played blasted my heart wide open and made tears stream down my face. She sang poems by Rumi, Hafiz and other amazing mystic Iranian poets in Farsi and it made me understand the longing to be overcome by the love of god.…

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