green and gold

Yesterday I drove through a stunning landscape of gold and green. Lush vineyards and golden hills. Some vines have lovely scattered flowers growing underneath. Those make me smile. The rows of vines are so orderly. They feed my need for structure and organization and make me feel calm. I can only imagine the amount of…

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Diana Williams

Today was a beautiful day. The air felt warm. The earth felt soft. The sunshine sparkled on the water. Monarch butterflies danced and flirted about. The sky was bright blue. The clouds were puffy and cute. Flowers seemed to have bloomed overnight and the abundance of new green life was everywhere. The light was magic…

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Joe Hugo Kojola

Joe Hugo Kojola, 1908-1994

My grandpa, Hugo “Joe” Kojola was born on this day in 1908. He died in 1994 at 86. As a kid, I thought he was Santa Claus because of his white beard, jolly laugh and round belly. He gave me shiny stones that he polished in his rock polishing machine. Many are still on my…

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George Grey Eagle Bertelstein

Today my friend George left his body. With all of the people he loved so deeply, I can only imagine how hard it must have been for him to let go and cross to the other side. He did it. His death has already been a deeply meaningful teaching. It has only just begun to…

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Turtle Love

My Aunt Joan has been on my mind a lot lately. She is mostly not in her “right” mind given her dementia, but certain parts of her personality still shine through… A couple of people from Joan’s past have reached out to me after finding the blog post I wrote about her a few years…

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46

Here’s my happiness about being 46. I love the way I’m aging. I love that I get to have more gray hairs, more vibrant flesh, more awareness of my humanity, and more agency and wisdom to live in my sovereignty. I love myself more all the time and that offers me even more love and…

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83

My dad took this photo of my mom and me about 42 years ago. Today my mom turns 83 and soon I turn 46. What a blessing it is to have been given all these moments to become who we are today and experience all the human things that life offers. Nothing is promised and…

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The Deepness | Into The Fire

My friend Paige (The Deepness) just released her second single, “Into the Fire”, off of her debut, self-titled album. I’ve been listening and wanted to share it with you. It’s a beautiful, soulful expression and prayer that speaks to me of deep transformation, healing, and longing for the kind of authentic expression that reaches out…

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My Ancestors Love

Remembering the dead & feeling my ancestors love. My maternal grandmother, Helen Aherns Berger, was the elder most present in my young life. What I remember most about her was the feeling of being accepted. I knew she was rooting for me to be myself. In retrospect, it seems like she wanted to see who…

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The Preacher

About 6 years ago, my good friend and her fiancé called to ask if I would officiate their wedding. I was incredibly honored and immediately said an enthusiastic. “YES!” As what I had agreed to do slowly set in, I realized that I felt insecure about performing a wedding ceremony given that I’ve had so…

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