Feelings
Favorite Mug
This is my favorite mug. I’ve been drinking my morning tea from this mug for 20 years. My hand fits perfectly through the handle so I can feel the warmth of the pottery in my palm. My thumb rests perfectly in a groove on top of the handle. It feels just right. This mug holds…
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Wisdom of just barely 47. Sitting and breathing fully is the most healing choice and a gateway to my own wisdom. A birthday can be quietly nurturing and soulful. My own secret adventures make me happy. Magic happens alone in the redwoods under a waterfall. Fully receiving all the birthday love from those available to…
Read Moresacred paradoxical vessel
One of the fascinating opportunities available when blessed with a human life is becoming a sacred paradoxical vessel. That could look like finding peace within wildly opposing truths, holding space and reverence for the full spectrum of humanity, and honoring the sacred center within. I love what we are capable of and I can feel…
Read MoreSan Quentin
Sunset at San Quentin. Tonight I helped 2 incarcerated men create resumes as part of the Prison to Employment Connection. They were both extraordinary and beautiful humans. One is dedicated to working as a therapeutic group facilitator for men. He’s inspired to help other men heal the way he was able to heal with the…
Read MoreWinter Solstice Light
I took some time today to seek out the light that was available on this Solstice. I put myself in the way of the light to receive warmth and fresh energy. I became more light. I felt the transformation happening between myself and today. I’ve been sick for days and isolating so I don’t add…
Read MoreGeorge Grey Eagle Bertelstein
Today my friend George left his body. With all of the people he loved so deeply, I can only imagine how hard it must have been for him to let go and cross to the other side. He did it. His death has already been a deeply meaningful teaching. It has only just begun to…
Read MoreHealing the War Inside Myself
I tried to claim to my journal that I don’t understand righteousness, but then I felt and saw that I do. Righteousness lives in me if I can undefend myself enough to see and acknowledge it. I can see ways righteousness owns me, if unchecked. There are layers of impact seared into flesh and strewn…
Read MoreLoneliness
Sometimes loneliness is gut wrenching. It feels vulnerable to talk about loneliness, but it’s such a real part of life. Facebook memories started pulling on a thread of loneliness today. I saw pictures from 8 years ago of people who came to my house for a pumpkin carving party. If I had a pumpkin carving…
Read MoreA rainbow is a spectrum
I love a rainy Sunday. I love a rainbow with my tea. I love right place, right time magic. These moments of peace and beauty feel wonderful and sometimes allow me to feel what has been bubbling underneath and rising to the surface over the last weeks. I might both overcomplicate and oversimplify some things…
Read MoreI am included
Today I took the long way home through China Camp. I drove slowly along curvy North San Pedro Road which hugs San Pablo Bay. 4 miles of nourishment. I love when the tide is coming in. I see rhythmic ripples in the smooth, glassy water making their way towards the shore. I admire the marshy…
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