Feelings
Changing My Mind
In February, I went to 19 yoga classes. At the beginning on the month, I overdid it and injured my shoulder & neck. I spent about a week & a half in pain and taking it very easy. I got a massage, saw the chiropractor, took Advil, did things with my non-dominant hand, iced, took…
Read MoreFriends
Today I’m happy about driving to Livermore for a strange, yet emotional Bowie Tribute concert. It’s all about who you go with. I’m happy about music that we can bond over and that it can help us find/express our true identity, heal from loss and pain, as well as remind us of our past. I’m…
Read MoreBody Fat
Allowing my body to become and stay fat over a long period of time has been deeply healing for me on many levels. It’s, of course, very painful to receive judgement from people that see being overweight as a sign of poor health, laziness, lack of strength or willpower, or gluttony. This can be traumatic…
Read MoreAnger
I was a very rageful little person, expressing it often in frustration at my inability to do everything by myself. At 3, I picked up a wooden rocking horse as big as me and threw it across the room because I couldn’t carry all my toys upstairs in 1 single trip. I used to stomp…
Read More“You Do Your Best, That’s All You Can Do.”
Today was hard. It was the kind of day that shook my confidence in my ability to what I do for a living. I’m wondering if I need to start over and do everything differently. It is going to be fine, but it feels intense right now. Sometimes there is a much wider gap in…
Read MoreBay Area
I love my home so much and can be very happy and cozy staying inside sometimes for days. I also love leaving my home and getting new perspectives, meeting new people, and taking in the freshness of the natural world. It makes me feel more alive and often even happier to come back home. I…
Read MoreFear
For the first part of 2018, I was deep in fear. It looked like depression, anxiety, hopelessness and insecurity. It was paralyzing. It got so uncomfortable and unbearable that I had to change almost everything, including my relationship to anger. I think it’s true that some of us react in anger when we are afraid,…
Read MoreEmotional Needs
Sometimes I write in dialogue with a part of myself that is called Higher Guidance. I learned about Higher Guidance and her unending wisdom almost 20 years ago. If I ask her direct questions, she always has clear, direct and helpful answers. I asked her what my emotional needs are and she said this: Your…
Read MoreHonoring
Sometimes I get far away from my prayer, which means that I am not considering, or treating sacredly, my heart or my truth. When I’m able to to re-ground myself and re-center my life around what my business is and what work is uniquely mine to do, I’m able to find clarity, relief and peace.…
Read MoreCosmic Rebel
Astrology, Tarot & Art with Katie Evans, Allyson Seal & several other lovely ladies tonight was fruitful & inspiring. I learned more about my chart, got an auspicious reading about my superpowers & future, & I created 3 body maps: Body, Mind & Spirit. I believe in the possibility of magical time. Time seems to…
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