Shifting
44
I’m finding a lot of peace at the start of my 44th year. Peace in the present moment, peace in being with myself, feeling peaceful in the body I’ve got right now, and peace with those in my life however close or far away they choose to be. There is also an abundance of feelings…
Read MoreWild Woman
Written before the photo shoot. Who is my wild woman self? What does she long for? How does she move through the world? How does she move her body? How does the skin of her face rest and revive itself? How does it feel inside of her when pleasure rises up through her root chakra…
Read MoreGrey Hairs
A few years ago I decided to stop hiding my grey hairs. I’ve noticed my grey hairs growing in for the last maybe 5-6 years. For the first few years, I decided that I would use demi-permanent hair color every 3 months or so to cover the grey hairs and fade out gradually instead of…
Read MoreSelf Love
For many years, I’ve been aware of my tendency to join in when life beats me up. If someone or something hurts my feelings, I will sometimes think all these terrible thoughts about myself in the aftermath. Other times I feel distinctly self-destructive. I’m often able to find mostly harmless ways to cope. Sometimes I…
Read MoreAnxiety
Behind the curtain of the personality I most often present to the world, I have a fair amount of anxiety streaming through me a lot of the time. The core of my anxiety stems from the experience of being in a group of people or at a party and feeling that no one sees me…
Read MoreLetting GO
My prayer today is to let the letting go happen in an easier, more peaceful way. Whatever is letting go of me is becoming something else that is useful somewhere else. The birds and the trees and the fire and the breeze showed me infinitely that the truth is right here all the time. It’s…
Read MoreIntention and Impact
Shaun King talks about how his wife, Rai King, taught him the difference between impact and intention. He says, “You might not have intended your words to be harmful, but we aren’t just responsible for our intentions, we are also responsible for the impact of our words and actions. And sometimes the impact of our…
Read MoreWhen One Of Us Falls
6 years ago, my friend Afran ended his life. Though I hadn’t known him long, his life and death impacted me so deeply. Witnessing the effect of his suicide on my community and the grief of so many people I love was almost unbearable. I didn’t know what to do or say, but I knew…
Read MoreDisrupting the flow
Here are some things I’ve been thinking about lately. Current goals for my ongoing, ever-changing state of awareness: 1. Noticing and taking in all visible and invisible forms of disparity I encounter and holding them as an expanded awareness of how to be most human and humane. There is always a worse circumstance or a…
Read MoreMeditation
I captured only a fraction of the intricate drops of rain beaded on the flower buds and leaves in this garden. The rain felt dewy and mist-like. I can’t remember ever feeling so content to be covered in tiny droplets of water and larger, more splatter-y drops falling on my head from the branches of…
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