Communicating
delicate balance
Some thoughts I had while sitting still. It’s useful to see all the choices available to me in any given moment. Also, I don’t want to spend so much time weighing each choice that I miss out on my life. Finding the flow feels like a good way to navigate. Feeling into the stuck, tense…
Read Moresunrise reflection
Today I woke up in time to go for a hike with my tea & catch the sunrise. It was chilly. The grass was a bit heavy with dew. The air smelled incredible, I want to try describing it. The scent felt like the earth’s effort to hydrate herself made her perspire. It’s the clean…
Read Moreflying through darkness
I’m 2 hours into a 5.5 hour flight across the country. The light out my window is waning as we fly into tonight’s darkness. I watched a movie for the first 2 hours called, We Live In Time. It had me shaking, crying, and trembling with grief for what I’ve never had and will likely…
Read Morecheryl strayed
I spent the last three days on a writing retreat in the Blue Ridge Mountains of North Carolina with Cheryl Strayed, 300 women writers & about 6 men. I thought I would be cool, but I was overcome and a bit giddy with how warm, real, generous, funny and witty Cheryl is. Her writing has…
Read MoreA rainbow is a spectrum
I love a rainy Sunday. I love a rainbow with my tea. I love right place, right time magic. These moments of peace and beauty feel wonderful and sometimes allow me to feel what has been bubbling underneath and rising to the surface over the last weeks. I might both overcomplicate and oversimplify some things…
Read MoreInside Job
I’ll be 45 in 2 days. Someone asked me what I want for my birthday. I couldn’t put it into words until right now. What I want feels way too big to ask for, unless it’s a prayer. What I want for myself is an inside job. I need to create it, do it and…
Read MoreMeaningful
Consciously moving towards what is meaningful. Meaningful moments occur most consistently when I create time and space for them. Connection with others, with nature, and with myself, all feel meaningful. I’m interested in all the gritty and glorious details of life. When it feels safe to be my full, authentic self, those moments are full…
Read MoreSelf Love
For many years, I’ve been aware of my tendency to join in when life beats me up. If someone or something hurts my feelings, I will sometimes think all these terrible thoughts about myself in the aftermath. Other times I feel distinctly self-destructive. I’m often able to find mostly harmless ways to cope. Sometimes I…
Read MoreAnxiety
Behind the curtain of the personality I most often present to the world, I have a fair amount of anxiety streaming through me a lot of the time. The core of my anxiety stems from the experience of being in a group of people or at a party and feeling that no one sees me…
Read MoreI love you
I wrote this 4 years ago and I remember precisely the feeling of expressing it. I still feel exactly the same way. The growing edge is living it and choosing this level of dedication to move, act and react from this wise and inspired part of myself. The sincerity of my words hold up over…
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