Listening to Water
Listening to water calms me. I often try to hear words in her sounds and find messages in my experience of her. My desire to make meaning is a front for my longing to experience the unearned love of the divine. The ways water shines her love on me fill up the spaces between words…
Read MoreWisdom from My Dying Self
A reflection through the eyes of my heart from wisdom gained over a lifetime. What my dying self would say to me about my life in this moment… ✨ Your life is a beautiful expression of healing, curiosity, love, compassion, peace, and stillness. The waves of love and generosity still in motion from the vibrations…
Read MorePerfect Timing
Today I drove onto the Richmond Bridge as the setting sun was perfectly poised above a fluffy cloud layer over the coastal hills. The sunlight beamed across the Bay towards me and cast a golden glow over Mt Tam through a fine layer of fog. I reminded myself over and over to focus on driving,…
Read MoreThe Deepness | Into The Fire
My friend Paige (The Deepness) just released her second single, “Into the Fire”, off of her debut, self-titled album. I’ve been listening and wanted to share it with you. It’s a beautiful, soulful expression and prayer that speaks to me of deep transformation, healing, and longing for the kind of authentic expression that reaches out…
Read MoreTomatoes
These tomatoes were worth waiting in a long line for at the Farmers Market. The man who grew them clearly loved all his tomatoes deeply. The way he talked about them, handled them, and infused love and joy into each purchase was beautiful. The long line for his tomatoes didn’t cause him to rush. He…
Read MoreWolf Medicine
Exploring wolf medicine in my life… How can I be aligned with wolf energy and allow my inner wolf to emerge? I have a fierceness deep within. It’s mostly dormant, existing in the background of my life. When someone or something activates my fierceness, the energy is like lightning shooting through my body. I resonate…
Read MoreSilence
Silence can have such depth and dimension. So much can happen without a sound. Even when I have very little to say, energy pulses, vibrates, and creates something where there’s also nothing. Sometimes I long for the right words and sometimes I make no effort to recall them. Silence can be comfortable and also unbearable.…
Read MoreSelf-Soothing
Recently I noticed that I’ve been soothing myself in ways that either don’t last, don’t work, or aren’t actually soothing. I’m not judging myself for that. I appreciate my awareness of it. At some point the part of me that truly seeks deep nourishment will activate. There are millions of opportunities each day to ignore…
Read MoreA Long Time Coming
A long time coming | Things worth waiting for I’ve spent much time over the last 10-11 years observing, watering, tending, and being with the Huachuma (San Pedro) in my garden. I’ve planted and replanted, potted and re-potted, and tried many different types of fertilizers. I’ve over-tended and under-tended them. I’ve gifted some Huachumas to…
Read MoreBelated
My 45th birthday was 4 months ago. Recently, I realized that I was feeling sad about not having had an opportunity to blow out candles on a cake. It’s a big deal to me to have that moment to make my birthday wish. Over the years I’ve lovingly provided that moment for friends and loved…
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