anger

I went for a neighborhood walk at sunset today. I felt so angry & needed to move. I stomped on all the dry leaves in my path. They made a crunching noise that was almost satisfying. I was reminded of the epic tantrums I threw as a kid where I’d slam my bedroom door more…

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it matters

Today I want you to know that all of your efforts make a difference. I want you to understand and feel deep in your bones that everything you put your energy toward carries your love in a way that heals. It’s all worth it. It’s all witnessed. It’s all seen. It is seen by the…

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breathe

Today’s message from love: Take a few long, slow, deep breaths. Take a few more. Breathe deeply all the way down into your pelvis. Breathe space between your ribs. Breathe into your back body. Generously give your lungs cool, fresh air. Let the exhale fall out of you gently. Let the air and the breath…

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message from love

A message from love: Never underestimate your heart. If you could see yourself through its eyes, you would never doubt yourself. It is not always easy to have a big heart. You were born for this challenge. You already have the capacity you need to give and receive love. You always have enough when it…

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waiting

I felt these words so deeply. I’ve been waiting too—sometimes patiently, sometimes aggressively, even self-destructively. I forget my self-care practices. I lean into choices I know won’t make me feel better. I ride a glimmer of creative spark, using a moment of inspiration to feel better, but I am still waiting. Waiting inside. Looking out…

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spiders + san pedro

Almost all of the San Pedro cactuses in my backyard are covered with spider webs. Upon inspection, I can almost always find at least one spider on any given length of cactus. Their webs stretch between the cacti, wrap around them, and catch all kinds of insects, leaves, and whatever the wind blows their way.…

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When One Of Us Falls

6 years ago, my friend Afran ended his life. Though I hadn’t known him long, his life and death impacted me so deeply. Witnessing the effect of his suicide on my community and the grief of so many people I love was almost unbearable. I didn’t know what to do or say, but I knew…

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Depression

It’s been a long time since I wrote a long post. This has been on my mind for a while and tonight I wanted to share with you some very raw, personal thoughts. Depression is something that I’ve had a lot of experience with for a really long time. I’ve done a lot of research,…

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Food

Re: food. I’ve struggled in the past (as recently as yesterday evening) to eat in a good way. Oh. My. God. There is SO much involved with eating in a good way. A least it seems that way to me at this point. I’m defining eating in a good way for myself as consuming excellent…

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