Archive for September 2024
ants
It’s 2:09am. I’ve been trying to fall asleep for more than 2 hours. I got up to make myself some Calm with magnesium, L-theanine, and GABA. This has been SO helpful with my sleep when I remember to take it. I engage in another round of killing ants as I wait for my hot water…
Read Moreroot rot
Last weekend, I noticed the root of one of my San Pedro plants is rotting. This is a first in the 13 years I have been tending these plants. Even with all I have learned, I still felt crushed, as if it were personal or my fault. I had all my feelings about what a…
Read Morelabyrinth
I walk into the labyrinth with this prayer: I can be happy in this life. I walk slowly, intentionally and calmly repreating this prayer several times to myself. I feel the magic of the Marin Headlands. I open myself wider and take in the expansive views from the Pacific cliffs overlooking the fog covered waves.…
Read Moreconnection
I recently caught myself performing connection. I’ve done this before and I’m sure I’ll do it again. I had an intention to feel connected. I noticed myself straining to be present, hyper-vigilant about noticing everything, working so hard at “connection.” Something about the realization this time made me wonder if I’ve ever even known anything…
Read Moreocean
I met my friend for lunch at the beach in Half Moon Bay today. There was no one on the beach when I got there. That Boys of Summer song played in my head. It was foggy, but the sun kept trying to peak through. As I sat looking out at the water, I saw…
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