learning from the river
I spent several hours over the past two days immersed in the Yuba River. I visited two different spots along the river, returning again and again to the water and the rocks as my teachers. I explored the shallow water, pulling myself forward with my arms like an alligator—my head just above the surface, my…
Read Moreowl feathers
I opened my back gate to look for my cats, and something white caught my eye in the dry grass. As I walked closer, I saw two feathers—at first I trusted my instinct that they belonged to an owl. Later, I convinced myself they must be red-tailed hawk, until a friend gently corrected me: these…
Read Morenot doing it alone
I spent the morning wrapped in a comforter, nestled into a window seat in Fort Bragg, looking out at a garden that felt more like a prayer than a landscape. Mist in the air, birds dipping into the stone bath, moss filtering the light, trees bowing gently in the breeze—it all felt so alive. So…
Read Moreglass beach
People search for sea glass like it’s gold—squatting, bending, digging, sifting, inspecting. Some come away with a handful, others fill pockets or bags. Everyone on the hunt for something shiny, smoothed by time and tide. Some say, “Glass Beach isn’t what it used to be.” Meaning: less glass now, fewer large pieces worth pocketing. There’s…
Read Morebecoming: my prayer
There’s a quiet voice in me that’s ready to be heard. Lately, I’ve been feeling the nudge to turn inward—not to retreat, but to listen. To listen to what I haven’t yet fully allowed myself to know. So I’ve set some intentions—not as rigid goals, but as gentle prayers, soft anchors for the path ahead.…
Read Moresong of my unborn children
Song of My Unborn Children Three souls entered my body,over three decadeseach for their own brief time. I felt them—deeply, wholly,in the marrow of my being.I loved them, and I let them go. They came in with passion, with fire,With the mystery of a momentary union.Not tied to time, or marriage, or a plan. Love…
Read Moresacred pause
Today I curated a day for myself filled with things that make me happy. Several moments happened organically that enhanced & deepened my happiness. It’s so beautiful & sacred to fuel & savor my own happiness. My current happiness holds as much no as it does yes. As much anger as joy. As much freedom…
Read Morepower outage
I was working away this evening & planning to keep going late into the night when the power went out. After momentary irritation, I felt a huge relief. It was the perfect moment to go for a sunset hike. Something in me has been resisting moving my body. It’s been harder to start walks, hikes,…
Read Moreillusion of control
Recently I booked a nonstop flight to Portland on Frontier. Then I got a notice that they changed my flight. The new plan was to stop in Las Vegas “on the way” to Portland…making it a 7 hour trip instead of 90 minutes. Ew. New plan! I canceled Frontier & paid more to fly United.…
Read Moresteering my own vessel
I asked my Higher Guidance, “What would you have me know today?” Here’s the answer: I am proud of you for finding the center of your own life and steering your Self in the direction of your own North Star. This life is for you to walk your path the best way you can following…
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