Shifting
heart rock
It is neither useful nor possible to solve all the problems of the day at once. Piling on all the burdens of the moment & wearing them like a heavy coat doesn’t help. Nor is it a solution to run away from or ignore it all. Handling things strictly in the order they appear isn’t…
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It’s a time of year when things shift. From closing the curtains to keep the heat out to closing them to keep the heat in. From wondering if my plants need water because they’re too dry to wondering if they will be okay with all the rain and cold. From the AC in the afternoon…
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What I Hope to Explore I hope to explore who I am when I’m untethered from who I think I’m supposed to be — from the versions of me I’ve shaped for respect, validation, or belonging.Who am I when I stop waiting for the “right time” to be myself? I want to experience more peace,…
Read Moreanger
I went for a neighborhood walk at sunset today. I felt so angry & needed to move. I stomped on all the dry leaves in my path. They made a crunching noise that was almost satisfying. I was reminded of the epic tantrums I threw as a kid where I’d slam my bedroom door more…
Read Morenot doing it alone
I spent the morning wrapped in a comforter, nestled into a window seat in Fort Bragg, looking out at a garden that felt more like a prayer than a landscape. Mist in the air, birds dipping into the stone bath, moss filtering the light, trees bowing gently in the breeze—it all felt so alive. So…
Read Moresacred pause
Today I curated a day for myself filled with things that make me happy. Several moments happened organically that enhanced & deepened my happiness. It’s so beautiful & sacred to fuel & savor my own happiness. My current happiness holds as much no as it does yes. As much anger as joy. As much freedom…
Read Morelove
Someone spelled LOVE on the sidewalk. I almost accidentally stepped on it, but didn’t. I stopped in my tracks and tears came to my eyes. I breathed in deeply and walked on feeling the ache in my heart. My restorative yoga teacher read a quote in class last night, “If you want to let go.…
Read Moredelicate
The sweet, earthy smell of the controlled burns today fills the evening air Then the scent of fresh cut grass overpowers it Still later the indescribably natural smell rising up from the damp, earth erupting in wildflowers and a million kinds of green life takes over A cool breeze comes in with the tide, The…
Read Morewhat really matters
There’s an explosion of new green everywhere, I saw the first poppies on the hillside today. Light pink blossom petals are silently fluttering to the ground with the slightest breeze. I’ve been easing my way back into my yoga practice after a 2-month break. I’ve found some energy and inspiration to cook a few meals…
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I feel too full. I’ve taken in too much information for too long and it’s all unsettled inside of me. I feel my heart pounding throughout my body. Everything feels a little tingly and vaguely overwhelming. It’s quiet now where I am, but it’s still too loud from all the residual sounds of the ways…
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