delicate balance

Some thoughts I had while sitting still.

It’s useful to see all the choices available to me in any given moment. Also, I don’t want to spend so much time weighing each choice that I miss out on my life.

Finding the flow feels like a good way to navigate. Feeling into the stuck, tense places so deeply that I come out the other side & keep going. Being more ME instead of holding back, suppressing or hiding. I need more of me, not less. I pray to stop the instinct to disappear myself.

All those instincts come from a part of me who deserves maximum compassion. That part tried so hard. It’s such an innocent effort. All the ways young minds make equations of how effort will equal love. The creative ways we try to earn our right to exist, try to pretzel our way into deserving love. That part of everyone deserves unlimited hugs.

I love witnessing the evolution of us. Self creation, self love, self empowerment, all of the steps on our journey that feel joyful, authentic & cosmically supported. Finding a delicate balance in relationships, communal energy, in nature & deep within oneself.

This navigation is a kaleidoscope of aha moments, teachings, points of light, seasons of pain, depression, letting go & carrying on. Each point becomes too saturated & breaks open into something else.

Imagine if we were able to fully comprehend the myriad nuances, depth, complexity of another person. How terrifyingly to allow all of us to be so complex, constantly popping out of all the boxes we’ve tried to fit into.

I pray for lifetime after lifetime where I can listen to all the stories, cry all the tears, laugh all the joys & feel into the deep exhaustions and elations of another souls journey. This prayer is constantly answered. Thank you.

I keep showing up, meeting the moment in the best way I know how, humbly accepting the mistakes & mishaps, regretting the places I cannot repair or amend in this life. I know that there is a witness, a bigger container, a wider holding, a gravitational force, an inevitable ebb & flow.

Breathing together creates a safe space where we can be our imperfect human selves, see each other with love & listen to what another speaks as their truth. This makes finding my own truth easier. It’s easier to remember what I’ve known & forgotten. It’s easier to find truths that were there but covered over with dust.

Life. This is time well spent. This is a choice I’ll make over & over.