WUNJO - The Rune of Joy

Years ago I bought The Book of Runes by Ralph H. Blum. It's a handbook for the Spiritual Warrior and the rune stones are an oracle providing a mirror and a little magic for knowing yourself deeply. I've consulted these runes many times over the years and value the way they consistently bring my focus directly to the heart of the matter. Wunjo (joy) is a rune that repeatedly appears for me - an inner urge to follow my joy always. It's a good way for me.

Writing is something that brings me peace, joy and exhilaration to share my inner world. Writing helps me make sense of myself and my world. I started writing for myself in high school. Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way introduced me to Morning pages and they have been my friend for years.

Friends

Today I’m happy about driving to Livermore for a strange, yet emotional Bowie Tribute concert. It’s all about who you go with. I’m happy about music that we can bond over and that it can help us find/express our true identity, heal from loss and pain, as well as remind us of our past. I’m…

Body Fat

Allowing my body to become and stay fat over a long period of time has been deeply healing for me on many levels. It’s, of course, very painful to receive judgement from people that see being overweight as a sign of poor health, laziness, lack of strength or willpower, or gluttony. This can be traumatic…

Anger

I was a very rageful little person, expressing it often in frustration at my inability to do everything by myself. At 3, I picked up a wooden rocking horse as big as me and threw it across the room because I couldn’t carry all my toys upstairs in 1 single trip. I used to stomp…

Pain

Yesterday I was thinking about how I have so much less to prove to myself or anyone else with my yoga practice than I did in my 20’s. Today I met my ego in my resistance to modifying a pose I was sure I could do. My teacher suggested I do an ankle to knee…

“You Do Your Best, That’s All You Can Do.”

Today was hard. It was the kind of day that shook my confidence in my ability to what I do for a living. I’m wondering if I need to start over and do everything differently. It is going to be fine, but it feels intense right now. Sometimes there is a much wider gap in…

Bay Area

I love my home so much and can be very happy and cozy staying inside sometimes for days. I also love leaving my home and getting new perspectives, meeting new people, and taking in the freshness of the natural world. It makes me feel more alive and often even happier to come back home. I…

Own Your Racism

My own racism rears its ugly head while I’m doing my anti-racism work. It happens all the time. I did my first ever video story today about owning my racism. I’m getting to know the racist parts of myself that haven’t been acknowledged so that I can more quickly recognize them and stay grounded in…

Birth Chart

I’m learning, a little bit at a time, about the map of the sky as it was when I was born and what insight it might hold in relationship to who and how I am today according to people who study astrology deeply. It’s helping me remember poignant truths and also see areas that I…

Check Your Privilege Co-Conspirator Workshop

Today in the Check Your Privilege Co-Conspirator Workshop we explored owning our racism. Doing anti-racism work doesn’t mean I’m not still sick with the toxicity of white supremacy. I don’t believe that anyone is immune to the effects of racism, we are all steeped in it and have been for generations. It would be naive…

Noan

My Aunt Joan seems to be losing touch with reality. She has disconnected herself from her friends and community and is barely picking up the phone when family members call. She doesn’t have internet, email, or a cell phone. She lives alone and isn’t letting anyone into her house and won’t agree to let us…

Truth

I often think as I sit down to write, “What is the most true thing that I could say today?” Of course, I don’t always share the most true things for good reasons. Not everything needs to be shared. Some things are private and sacred. Most of us share so little of our interior experience.…

Fear

For the first part of 2018, I was deep in fear. It looked like depression, anxiety, hopelessness and insecurity. It was paralyzing. It got so uncomfortable and unbearable that I had to change almost everything, including my relationship to anger. I think it’s true that some of us react in anger when we are afraid,…