WUNJO - The Rune of Joy
Years ago I bought The Book of Runes by Ralph H. Blum. It's a handbook for the Spiritual Warrior and the rune stones are an oracle providing a mirror and a little magic for knowing yourself deeply. I've consulted these runes many times over the years and value the way they consistently bring my focus directly to the heart of the matter. Wunjo (joy) is a rune that repeatedly appears for me - an inner urge to follow my joy always. It's a good way for me.
Writing is something that brings me peace, joy and exhilaration to share my inner world. Writing helps me make sense of myself and my world. I started writing for myself in high school. Julia Cameron's The Artist's Way introduced me to Morning pages and they have been my friend for years.
Pain
Yesterday I was thinking about how I have so much less to prove to myself or anyone else with my yoga practice than I did in my 20’s. Today I met my ego in my resistance to modifying a pose I was sure I could do. My teacher suggested I do an ankle to knee…
“You Do Your Best, That’s All You Can Do.”
Today was hard. It was the kind of day that shook my confidence in my ability to what I do for a living. I’m wondering if I need to start over and do everything differently. It is going to be fine, but it feels intense right now. Sometimes there is a much wider gap in…
Bay Area
I love my home so much and can be very happy and cozy staying inside sometimes for days. I also love leaving my home and getting new perspectives, meeting new people, and taking in the freshness of the natural world. It makes me feel more alive and often even happier to come back home. I…
Own Your Racism
My own racism rears its ugly head while I’m doing my anti-racism work. It happens all the time. I did my first ever video story today about owning my racism. I’m getting to know the racist parts of myself that haven’t been acknowledged so that I can more quickly recognize them and stay grounded in…
Birth Chart
I’m learning, a little bit at a time, about the map of the sky as it was when I was born and what insight it might hold in relationship to who and how I am today according to people who study astrology deeply. It’s helping me remember poignant truths and also see areas that I…
Check Your Privilege Co-Conspirator Workshop
Today in the Check Your Privilege Co-Conspirator Workshop we explored owning our racism. Doing anti-racism work doesn’t mean I’m not still sick with the toxicity of white supremacy. I don’t believe that anyone is immune to the effects of racism, we are all steeped in it and have been for generations. It would be naive…
Noan
My Aunt Joan seems to be losing touch with reality. She has disconnected herself from her friends and community and is barely picking up the phone when family members call. She doesn’t have internet, email, or a cell phone. She lives alone and isn’t letting anyone into her house and won’t agree to let us…
Truth
I often think as I sit down to write, “What is the most true thing that I could say today?” Of course, I don’t always share the most true things for good reasons. Not everything needs to be shared. Some things are private and sacred. Most of us share so little of our interior experience.…
Fear
For the first part of 2018, I was deep in fear. It looked like depression, anxiety, hopelessness and insecurity. It was paralyzing. It got so uncomfortable and unbearable that I had to change almost everything, including my relationship to anger. I think it’s true that some of us react in anger when we are afraid,…
Emotional Needs
Sometimes I write in dialogue with a part of myself that is called Higher Guidance. I learned about Higher Guidance and her unending wisdom almost 20 years ago. If I ask her direct questions, she always has clear, direct and helpful answers. I asked her what my emotional needs are and she said this: Your…
My Dad
It’s my dad’s birthday today & I’ve been reflecting on some of the more subtle, but overarchingly powerful influences he’s had on my life. For much of my life, I’ve been more tuned in to noticing the differences between myself and my family than the similarities. I’ve always known that my dad has a brilliant…
Honoring
Sometimes I get far away from my prayer, which means that I am not considering, or treating sacredly, my heart or my truth. When I’m able to to re-ground myself and re-center my life around what my business is and what work is uniquely mine to do, I’m able to find clarity, relief and peace.…