Posts by Abby Kojola
Self-Soothing
Recently I noticed that I’ve been soothing myself in ways that either don’t last, don’t work, or aren’t actually soothing. I’m not judging myself for that. I appreciate my awareness of it. At some point the part of me that truly seeks deep nourishment will activate. There are millions of opportunities each day to ignore…
Read MoreA Long Time Coming
A long time coming | Things worth waiting for I’ve spent much time over the last 10-11 years observing, watering, tending, and being with the Huachuma (San Pedro) in my garden. I’ve planted and replanted, potted and re-potted, and tried many different types of fertilizers. I’ve over-tended and under-tended them. I’ve gifted some Huachumas to…
Read MoreBelated
My 45th birthday was 4 months ago. Recently, I realized that I was feeling sad about not having had an opportunity to blow out candles on a cake. It’s a big deal to me to have that moment to make my birthday wish. Over the years I’ve lovingly provided that moment for friends and loved…
Read MoreHello
If your eyes are reading this…hello. I wish that I was seeing you in person and feeling my cheeks lift and my eyes crinkle as I smile at you. Thank you for seeing my name, thinking of me, and reading my words. However we became connected, no matter the length of time or number of…
Read MoreMessages from Plants
Be with us. Listen gently for our vibrations and wisdom. We’ve been echoing for eternity, you can’t miss the truth if you stop & listen. Gentleness is powerful. Be soft, be gentle with yourself. The arc of time is long, pace yourself. Let the light give you warmth, energy, and love. Let it fill you…
Read MoreInside Job
I’ll be 45 in 2 days. Someone asked me what I want for my birthday. I couldn’t put it into words until right now. What I want feels way too big to ask for, unless it’s a prayer. What I want for myself is an inside job. I need to create it, do it and…
Read MoreMadrone
The first time I saw a Madrone tree I was mesmerized and completely lit up inside. I couldn’t believe how beautifully the red skin peeled off the smooth and sensuous green trunk & branches. Everything about Madrone trees resonates with me. Seeing them helps me answer a deep question I’ve always had that I didn’t…
Read MoreMeaningful
Consciously moving towards what is meaningful. Meaningful moments occur most consistently when I create time and space for them. Connection with others, with nature, and with myself, all feel meaningful. I’m interested in all the gritty and glorious details of life. When it feels safe to be my full, authentic self, those moments are full…
Read MoreSad
I feel sad when things don’t work out the way I wanted them to. Life is often not the way I imagined it would be. I could be endlessly disappointed. I could (and do) spend time wishing things were different or imagining how I could have created a different outcome if I had only been…
Read MoreOak Trees
I was thinking about why I love oak trees so much. They make me feel like anything is possible. I learn so much from being near them and absorbing their peaceful presence. However big my problems seem or however hard my thoughts, an oak tree can give me the perspective that there is always a…
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